what to do with the time that is given us?

        In my opinion;the greates tragedy of life is that life carries on. It doesn’t stop when something terrible happens. You want the world to stop turning but it doesn’t. During my time here so far I have seen terrible poverty, abuse and suffering. I have seen things which I never thought I'd witness. In spite of what has happened I am still alive and carrying on. Now I'm ill and am trying to get better and recover. I have no time to brood over what I've seen and experienced. I know that time will pass and life will return to normal. Will I be the same? Can I be the same? 

  I'm reading one of my favourite books at the moment "Lord of the Rings" and this quote has helped me:

"I wish it need not have happened in my time" 

"So do I...and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us."

   I have seen mental and physical pain. I am sick and I feel tired, upset, scared and depressed. So what am I going to do? 

  Part of me desperately wants to come back to the UK for a few weeks to recover. Part of me thinks I should stay here. I don't know yet what I will do but I do know this; whatever happens I will rely on God. I will use what time I have here to carry on working and try to show Gods' love.